I might as well accept that I'm a cash cow to be milked daily. These girls don't see me any other way. Justice storms in this morning demanding money. My dick was getting hard looking at her in her sexy light blue jeans. She just wanted to get the money, saying to trust her to come right back once she picked up what she needed. No way, I said. She reluctantly pulled j her jeans down saying I have ten minutes. It must have been a combo of getting turned on, and the time limit. I consistently and vigorously pumped her pussy. The minute I blew my load, she was out the door. I like that I can still fuck. Maybe it's all motivation. I dunno. 

 Ignoring all the calls and texts from at least two or three women, I happily slept on my couch all day. That is until the blonde showed up at the door. I had the same problems as usual over. I’m just not consistently hard, but she was sexy enough. I got out the camera and filmed her taking a quick shower, Then just set it aside and fucked her. When it’s just me and I’m not holding the camera it’s not very exciting to watch. This was the first time I fucked her in the ass, though, and I did manage to get off. I just jerked off a bit and then slid it in her pussy. She would’ve let me come in her ass too if I wanted. She is now a three hole slut. She insists that I’m the first one to fuck her up the ass.  I hope no one else shows up unannounced tonight. Looking back on this past week, I fucked five women I don't know how many times. No wonder I can't keep it up anymore. I need a break. 

 Due to poor judgment and a lack of sleep, I was hit up this morning by that cranky girl with the great ass. I was reluctant at first to meet up, considering how my night had been, but no one makes good decisions at 4am. I eventually left my cave to pick her up. We got back, she took a quick pee, and then hoped onto the bed and bent over for me. I started fucking her vigorously, but could feel myself losing steam. However, this time I just kept pumping steadily until I finally climaxed. Her uterus collected what I can only guess was a pint of sperm. I'm taking out for at least a couple days now. 

 I just can't get hard. I was sick one the weekend. I am lazy, fat couch potato. I'm so tired. I wanna hit the gym but that place looks like an alien landscape full of dangerous torture devices. I have no idea what to do. I get tired easily now. I changed after chemo, but didn't want to admit it.  She was bugging me all day. I've been putting off getting with this girl for a while, but she was real pushy. So, after I got home, I fell asleep on the couch. After her trying to get me to go pick her up, I eventually ignored her. I fell asleep for a few hours. I woke up and took a shower. Now that it was getting late, I finally caved and went to pick her up.  She was waiting for me and when she got into the car, she had in jeans and a sweater. What I wasn't expecting was her undoing to show me her bra and no shirt underneath. I pulled over onto the side of the road, and she started blowing me. Just as I got hard, she jumps out of the car, squats down and urinates. She ju...

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 She called and texted asking for 20 yesterday. Ignored entirely since I gave hera lot of money already. Then the Bell went ringing this morning. I let her in again. She won't leave me alone. Meanwhile I get calls from the Cousin asking for money. She wanted to see me later, but I sent her 20 and left it at that. She never called at 3pm like she said, so that's my exit. Now I have Justice on the porch ready to hassle me some more. She won't let up.  Meanwhile, I have a wound I note need to deal with. Started out as a small pimple, but grew into a problem. I've seen these before on the junkies when they shoot up wrong. I hope this isn't that kind of would. Even so, it's been a couple days. Time to get someone who knows what they are doing.

 Justice came over today. I was sick all day and tired. Stayed home from work with the chills and throwing up all night. Yet here she was at 9am, wanting money. I am despising her more than ever lately. She keeps demanding money from me. I just want her to stay away from me. She wanted $80. I actually tried fucking her but it was not happening. As soon as she left, I fell back to sleep. I didn't wake up until 7pm. An hour later she showed back up at the door. I received two texts from other women asking for money. I completely ignored them. Today is also the cousin's birthday, so I'm glad I didn't hear from her. But now Justice is here again, demanding another $40. After a lot of fighting, she left with the money.  I might just move and change my number. There's always the nuclear option. I'm going back to sleep. 

 I told Justice no today, but still plicated her with $20. Another one texted  ask her for money, but I ignored her. it’s just easier not to answer them. But then that blonde girl showed up at the door. Of course, I fucked her. So I blew off my date with the other girl that I was gonna meet up with today for ice cream and probably sex after. After a few texts back-and-forth, we might get together tomorrow. but now I have a new one coming over the house. The really skinny girl. I wonder that I can’t stay up all night, don’t really wanna have sex, she wants to do laundry, but I did warn her that I have to get up tomorrow morning early. So we’ll see what happens with this monster.

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 Well... weening myself off of constant pussy is going to bed lot harder than I thought. I got a call from the Cousin saying her mother was in the hospital. This is her way of steering a conversation that leads to her bent over on her knees in front of me.  I then got texts from the redhead, telling me she liked the last time we got together. I took her to dinner, then had her for dessert. I turned them both down along with three others who've been trying to get in on my packed schedule. I tried fucking the dead fish again, but that was a chore. Finally, and unexpectedly, the blonde showed up at my door demanding $120. When she or Justice show up like this, there is no getting rid of them. I fucked her, have her then money, chastised her not to do this again, and sent her on her way. She and her boyfriend drove off. I wonder if he chooses to ignore her putting napkins down the front of her shorts to soak up the cum oozing out of her.  The skinny one wanted to come over bu...

 I'm paying for girls to let me whack off a limp dick. There must be something in the water, cause they're all bitchy. No intimacy. Kills my hard on. I'm simply not turned on anymore by these strung out bitches. I start out strong, but look down at them and lose it. You know those videos of girls passed out or sleeping? Yeah. Like that. Except that I can't fuck a girl like that. I need positive responsiveness. Or maybe just abstain for a week. Having a girl bend over is just not enough anymore. I've been fed a steady diet or pussy. Last night, Justice stopped over unannounced. That means she won't leave until she gets her money. So I force myself to fuck her. It's like rape.  Tonight, I got together with another one. She's the dead fish with the nice ass. Surely, I thought I could do it, but her knee jerk reactions to any intimacy or touch just killed it. It then takes me great effort to whack off into her cunt. It's been like this for a while. Too m...

 Really pisses me off. I get a call from the Cousin saying that she wants me to come pick her up. I get there and she’s in a car with three other people. I don’t know two of them. The one in the driver seat is a complete asshole. You try to talk to him and he doesn’t acknowledge you. Probably thinks I’m a narc or something. She’s sleeping in the backseat and refuses to wake up or even move. The guy next to her is smoking crack. She asked me to come and get her and this is what I find. She’s really gone bad. Her drug use is extensive. She’s got real thin. Maybe she’s depressed from losing her fourth baby. The one she said was mine but we all know it’s not. Pretty fucked up situation. I made a few attempts to wake her up, but it was a waste of time. I left. I came back a little later, but they said she didn’t wanna see me. I think they were lying. She was probably just sleeping. Who knows. Who cares? I got a call from another girl that I haven’t seen in a while. The one with the big ...

  The money received every month is a pittance. A few hundred dollars on average is given over to her. You think she wouldn't bother, but when one starts to become reliant upon steady income, then expect to be hassled constantly for it! I was someone's payee once and every month became an argument. She would fight horribly with me until she got her money. Now, despite my best efforts to avoid this fate, Justice continues to hound me for the money generated from the sites every month.  She came over at 5 this morning and kept buzzing and knocking until I answered. She demanded $250. I just sent her $50. She wanted the rest. After a lot of arguing, I was content that she was also willing to fuck me. She wanted money and dick. She wouldn't shut up. Kept arguing. She shut the hell up once I stuck my dick in her.  She left shorty after, and I fell back to sleep. I woke up late for work, and called in. Then I fell back to sleep. It's now 3pm and two girls wanting to see me si...

 Turns out I've been editing a much lower resolution video. Unaware of this error, I must now re-edit my videos with the proper resolution. This is a slow, boring process. Doubly so when I go to hit "export" and the resolution sucks. this is why I have so many videos that I have not uploaded yet. Including the two new ones that I tried, but now have to re-edit. I don’t need the money. What’s the point of this anymore? I supposed it’s the same point as when I started. Posterity. Not just for me. They all have told me that they appreciate the shutterbug in me. They know I have been documenting them over the years. I have more pics and vids of these girls than anyone. Not just sexually. I have many candid and portrait pictures. If there’s one thing I’ve learned taking photographs of people is that no one likes their picture taken, but everyone wants an 8 x 10 framed copy.

 Justice showed up at my door past midnight. Called at 10, told her not to come over. Yet here she is, in a jean miniskirt, already stripping. So, I fucked her. Unwillingly, mind you. I didn't want to, but she was going to get her money anyway. At least make her work for it. She kept hurrying me, which makes it harder to cum. She doesn't want to outright say it, but she's fucking her driver. Some Puerto Rican that gets high with her. Apparently her new running partner. She says he has a girlfriend.  He fucks you, right?  Yeah, but we're not together! This is women logic. We had this conversation as I was fucking her. Whatever, I blew my load in her, because that upsets her. She doesn't want to smell when she fucks him after me. She actually told me this. Then she complained because she wanted more that the 80 I usually give her. She said it's not worth it. I said don't fuck me then. She didn't have a response. She knows she's getting older. She knows...

 The problem with porn is that it feeds our desires for women. We can have sex with them, but we will always want them again. Just like visiting a restaurant. No matter how good the experience, no matter how full one becomes, the desire to eat again will always push us to seek more food. Food, sex. It's all the same. We have to eat. We are compelled to reproduce. No matter how many times I fuck the Cousin, that feeling of wanting to fuck her always returns.  She's a mess. Life for her sucks. She's too skinny, constantly gets high, her life has spiraled out of control. She's been staying in an RV camper with her family. I guess it’s a step up from the tents from last year. The whole family is a bunch of degenerates. they all sit in the camper getting high all day. today she didn’t wanna come with me because she wasn’t ready and I wasn’t gonna wait around. I’m not even sure I wanted to fuck her. It’s just been a while since I have. You start to get used to pussy when you...

 Don't blame me for shitty, boring videos. I was fortunate enough to capture them. Justice had come over for two nights. Then Blondie comes over unannounced the following afternoon. I can barely get it up. I figured out my body. I need two days to recover before I'm good to go. Get real hard, fuck real good...but... They won't give me a chance to recover. You don't go for a run after you go for a run, and then go for another run! I am tired. My dick wants to hide. It doesn't matter how slutty or sexy a girl can be. It matters if you're ready or not.  Give me some breathing room! Justice came over around midnight. Then showed up just before midnight, so twice one day. Then the next afternoon, I had to fuck Blondie. Normally, given a chance to recover, I could smash that pussy. Instead I'm out of breath, and furiously whacking off in front of a sexy girl. This is ridiculous. Just like when I tried fucking the Cousin last week, but already got some. That pus...

I was sitting in a booth at a local diner eating an undercooked burger. Sitting close to me was a young man trying desperately to impress the girl sitting next to him. He tries to look a certain way, act as cool as he can, really try to charm and impress her. I'm disgusted. Fuck all that. Tried for too many years before discovering one only needs to flash a few Jackson's in front of their faces to get them to fuck you. Not all of them, but a lot. To me, the right ones. Ones that don't require so much effort. Guys try so hard to get a girl to fuck them. Sometimes I feel like I've found a cheat code. Don't focus on one girl. Sure we all have that crush. We all like a certain girl. If she's not into you, fuck that. Remember the goal. You just want hot snatch. That's it. You'll be surprised how little you care about a girl once you blow your load. I'm already thinking about how to get that bitch to leave.  Now, I love women, but you must remember that a ...