What am I thinking?



 I'm paying for girls to let me whack off a limp dick. There must be something in the water, cause they're all bitchy. No intimacy. Kills my hard on. I'm simply not turned on anymore by these strung out bitches. I start out strong, but look down at them and lose it. You know those videos of girls passed out or sleeping? Yeah. Like that. Except that I can't fuck a girl like that. I need positive responsiveness. Or maybe just abstain for a week. Having a girl bend over is just not enough anymore. I've been fed a steady diet or pussy. Last night, Justice stopped over unannounced. That means she won't leave until she gets her money. So I force myself to fuck her. It's like rape. 

Tonight, I got together with another one. She's the dead fish with the nice ass. Surely, I thought I could do it, but her knee jerk reactions to any intimacy or touch just killed it. It then takes me great effort to whack off into her cunt. It's been like this for a while. Too much, too often. Even though I picked up the dead fish tonight, two others wanted to stop over and get fucked. I didn't respond to them. 

I’m not going to take pills. I’m just gonna slow down. I’m gonna try to tell these women "No!"

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