Anyone reading or watching what I do is getting all the highlights. It's like watching the highlights of a football game. All those parts look exciting and great but most of the time you just see the players just standing around doing nothing.  So reality can be a little bit different. Girls can be flaky, bitchy, they can hound you for money, real life stuff. Justice blew up my phone today. You see, we settled on an arrangement for the videos. I pay her weekly. She now completely depends on this money. Like most of the girls out here, she scoffs at the money thinking, "I can make way more than than in an hour." The difference here though is that it is steady, and anything steady can be depended upon. So even though I said I’d pay her Tuesdays by Saturday  she’s already blowing up my phone. Today is no different. Today is Monday. She’s never satisfied with the money. I give her she tries every way she can to get more. Today she’s introducing me to another friend. Doesn’t e...

 There was a time I would cruise Main Street looking for girls. Then there was a time where I would go online for escorts. I’ve left these things behind me, even though they’re still in my toolbox. Nowadays, the girls come to me. They knock on my door without me even calling or asking them to show up. I suspect that they may have set up a schedule with each other so they don’t conflict. Most people would tell you that they hate the drug industry, but I am a beneficiary of that entire system. When girls need drugs, and they only really have one way of getting it, you only have to let it be known that you are the way that they can get it. my house is a mess. I don’t give them very much money relatively. I like to think that I’m charming and good-looking, but they don’t give a shit about that either. You could be fat and disgusting and they’ll still visit. You just have to be reliable. If a girl is sick and needs shit, she knows she can tap you for money. That’s why I can just sit aro...

 Every time I masturbate, it’s a money saving victory. nobody bothered me tonight so I was able to whack off in peace even then I have to watch my own porn of me fucking the girls that I can’t post on here. My secret stash. I don’t know how kids did they deal with it. Constantly being bombarded by sex and the pressure to have sex. When I was a kid, I had my brother's magazines that he hid under the bed, and that one porno Dad kept in the closet. I once found an air freshener on the ground of a topless woman. To a teenager that was like finding gold. Nowadays, anyone can pop online and see whatever they want. I wake up every day to images of sex sex sex! Of course, I act up upon them. As you all know, I like to fuck just as much as the next person. But I don’t like to be with one person. I have so much variety. I’ll never settle down with a woman. Every woman I’m with is special in their own way. I tried to come up with a nastiest Titles for the videos. And they are in fact whores t...

 I was only supposed to give her 80 today cause I gave her 20 on Sunday, but she demanded 100 and was in a huge hurry waking me up at nine in the morning because her boyfriend was waiting for her. I was actually gonna give her 140 but she decided she couldn’t wait. It was disrespectful to her boyfriend to keep him waiting. So she took the hundred and took off. She said she was gonna be right back, but she’s not coming back. She’s got her money.All the same I’ve been disgusted with her lately because she’s banging this other guy. That’s for me to deal with, as I said about petty jealousies. It’s not really jealousy for me. It feels more like rejection. Which again is another thing that’s in my head because most of the time my dick is buried balls deep in her. maybe that I should’ve been making a video fucking her dressed like that, but she’s in a mental state where she needs to get high and has people waiting for her. That's no fun.Women can be the sweetest things on earth when they...

 There is no formal training for relationships. As kids we just learned from our parents and other people how relationships are formed and maintain. That’s why nearly everyone has a childlike view of relationships. That’s why most fail. I could talk about this all day, but I’ll focus on the limited view of cheating. During my early relationship relationships in life women would cheat on me and then the relationship would self-destruct. it wasn’t until later in life that I learned that I had to make the choice of a woman who wanted to stay with me, even though she cheated on me. Their choice being do I love her enough to want to continue with her in my life or not. In this case I did. But I was still limited in my childlike view of relationships. To justify dealing with her actions, I would cheat on her. This is toxic overtime because each of us had an expectation of the other that would never be met. Nowadays, things are very different. I could care less if women cheat on me becaus...

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