I have at least half a dozen sluts on rotation. Two have been crashing at my place. The Cousin gave birth and didn't waste and time. She had me pick her up and it turned into just another fuck session. Bring her home, bend her over, bring here back. She's living in an RV with a bunch of addicts, still smoking Fetty. She informed me that the baby was borna month premature, and being observed/cared for by the local hospital. She visits daily, but has not invited me to accompany her on these visits. She wanted $100 from me, and that was it.  I spent last night with Justice and the skinny girl. Fucked them whenever I felt like it. Ate out the skinny one and blew a load. Then later that night, Justice wanted action. Fucked and finger blasted her to sleep. In the morning I blew another load in the skinny one.  Meanwhile, I'm getting texts from that girl that comes over, and only lets me blow a load. I wouldn't bother with her, but she's got such a great ass that I overlo...

 I've become complacent with the roster of women who keep in contact with me on nearly a daily basis. I decided to hit up one who I get along pretty well. She was in an RV in a plaza. I went there to pick her up. She wanted money up front. She was willing to leave a phone of hers as collateral. Normally, I would lie and say I don't have cash, so I don't need to deal with their nonsense. You don't want to pay up front for two reasons.  1. They may ditch you.   2. They will get their dogs and get high in front of you. This is worse than the first option, which burns you but let's you of the hook.  I wasn't on my A game and handed over $60. She went back inside the RV. After waiting for over five minutes, I decided I was burned and went home. I got a call twenty minutes later. She was pissed I left, saying she needed her phone. I told her I was going to leave her phone at my house and if she wanted it, I'll come get her and bring her home.  She came back with m...

 Here's a simple scenario that happened today. Last night, Justice showed up at the door. I've been sick for a couple weeks and had no desire or tolerance for any company. I let her in. She's slightly brain damaged from her illness, so I need too constantly redirect her now. This is tolerable. Her nonsense is not. She spent the night doing light cleaning and getting high before falling to sleep. I haven't been sleeping well sure to being under the weather.  Now today, she immediately wants me too bring her to get $60 worth of crack. She says she's not touching dope. I pull her sweatpants down, and fuck her. We get dressed, I get her $60, some taco bell, and I DROP HER OFF. She is selfish, and interested in being comfortable. I don't want to deal with her nonsense. All addict girls want a man that will get them shit, and give them a place to get high. Don't. Get rid of the bitch. Drop her off. Otherwise, you will have to cater to her shit all day and any plan...

Friday, one girl stops by after spending time in the hospital after being stabbed at the train station by a psycho. He's been arrested. She's had been sleeping all day. I'm sorry she has nowhere to go, but I'm not looking for a roommate. The Cousin had her baby. The odd thing is... She told me she was pregnant in March. Nothing with her adds up. Other than wanting to bend over for a C-note to get high, there has been no desire on her part for any interaction with me. Whether I'm the father or not, she is exceedingly cruel about the situation.  Since her hospital issues, Justice has completely gone downhill. She's out of her mind, messed up, no teeth, staples in her head, and crazy with erratic thoughts.  And then there's the usual parade of women offering their pussies to me. I've been keeping to myself, having been sick for a week. My back account is healthy as a result. 

 I gave SO MANY GIRLS asking to send them money. The popular scam is that they are "stuck somewhere" and need money for a ride home. Total horseshit. At least they know not to ask for a lot of money anywhere from $10-$60. lately I just been ignoring them. Except for the Cousin and justice who will relentlessly bug the shit out of me until I give them a bit of money I’ve learned it’s just better to just give it and get on with it. do not download apps like Cash app that allow you to send money to people and then tell them about it because these girls will find ways of getting you to send them money for nothing. You could just ignore them of having to deal with a fucking nag all day, Showing you that these aren’t nice sweet, hot girls, but rather the nasty, cruel, threatening cunts that they are. I guess the main question here is if you would even bother with these fucking people if you didn’t have a dick. Of course, the answer is no. 

 The videos seem to be a nice profit. The agreement was to give Justice half, keep the other half for taxes and my efforts. It's disappointing to see her find out each month how much she's earned, then bug me for all of it, then immediately piss it all away on drugs.  I've offered different deals to other girls, and they are receptive to the idea. However, they need proper up to date IDs and paperwork signed. Once that's achieved, my desk is the regular amount for banging them, usually $60, plus an additional $50 for each video shoot.  This is an easy arrangement.  But that's not what I'm here to talk about. I want to give an update. Justice had all her teeth pulled while the hospital, and will need dentures. She was finally able to leave, and immediately took off to get high. The hospital for in touch with her and warned here to return within the week or she could die. Serious, but she's an idiot. Hopefully, she did the right thing.  I've been successfu...

 The anthropomorphization of death is an easy way for us to deal with the abstraction of loss. You can't reason with the abstraction, but you can have an argument with a skull. You can deal with the five separate stages of grief far better than Hamlet lamenting what's left of his friend resting in the palm of his hand.  I tried saying women in the tradition set down through the generations. Find a girl you like, hope she likes you, ask her out on some dates, and hope it doesn't lead to heartbreaks and financial ruin. Pay for everything, pay for time, pay with money, pay with vindictiveness and hatred, be cast aside for a better model with more potential. Or maybe I'm just that hard to deal with. A girl won't want you if she doesn't respect you. Maybe I should have taken that swing at the other guy, stood my ground, fought harder, tried harder, done better.... Or maybe I should never have discovered that after crying myself to sleep night after night over these g...