A day full of wait.

I've heard a soldier's career is 95% standing around waiting and 5% action. My ridiculous comparison is how women make me wait to the point where I’m just not gonna bother anymore. Try that shit with a bus or an Uber. I almost became a soldier at 29. This was during the Bush era. I went in for the physical test came real close. I went to the Navy and they told me no. Same with the Air Force, and well pretty much. The only people that wanted me were the Army. By this point, I had a college degree and was a bit down on my luck. someone warned me not to join if Bush was reelected, saying that evangelical prick was definitely going to make us go to a war that we had no business fighting. I wanted OCS, but they refused. I had a computer science background. They wanted to give me NCO right off the bat. It was OK, not quite what I wanted. But that problem of Bush came back. Back then, I knew that piece of shit Colin Powell lied right to our faces about weapons of mass destruction. There’s no way I would ever fight for anyone like them. I told the army thanks but no thanks.

Fast forward to today. We no longer have some evangelical prick doing whatever Netanyahu wants. Instead, we were a fucking idiot trying to hide evidence. Netanyahu still has the same strategy. Use them through devotion or use them through leverage. Either way I’m not gonna ever fight for this country. And I strongly suggest any soldier reading this to immediately quit in protest. As for the rest of them, you go over there, knowing what you’re doing. Don't cry when that shit falls on you. You will get no sympathy from me. 

But I digress... I spent the morning answering a phone call from some bitch that I mentioned I would help two days ago. She was so insistent. I eventually just told her to fuck off. She still doesn’t get the message. Junkies want money and they’re like terminators. They just don’t stop. I went to pick up another girl to take to an appointment but she blew me off. I got a text from her later saying she was sleeping. Great, more delays. 

I went to another girl to get more paperwork signed and she wanted more money, little bits here and there. Another wanted to hang out and have some fun without really spending much money with me. That later equated to her wanting her nails done for a couple hundred bucks and for me to pay for it.I told her we could hang out and get some ice cream or go to lunch or something like that. For $200, I wanted her to help me with a video. You scratched my back, I scratch yours. She didn’t text back. 

Another wanted to ride to the Methadone clinic. It started to lightly rain so rather than go home I agreed. So I went and parked the car and waited for her. And waited and waited. While I was waiting, the Cousin called. That was enough for me. That other girl started calling again with me, ignoring her calls and I’ve got two girls calling me, wondering where the hell I am since I’m now ignoring both of them. 

I picked up the Cousin, took her home and tried to make a video with her. If you place the camera wrong, you’re just gonna get a shot of my ass bouncing up and down and who the hell wants to see that? this is one of those videos where I’m pounding her, which is pretty damn boring. Great sex is not exciting to watch. I also couldn’t find the vibrator. I looked all over the house so I gave up and just started banging her. After we were done, I looked up and saw the bag. I remember putting it in that bag and felt a sudden wave of foolishness wash over me. That was quite the missed opportunity. I fuck the Cousin often enough that I can just do it next time, but that still kind of sucked. 

I dropped her off and went home. I then got my daily phone call from jail. Justice rambled on and if one does not get enough sleep, one becomes snappy and she becomes hard to tolerate. Every word out of her mouth is pretty much disregarded entirely. I don’t give a shit at all what she says to me and I tell her so. You have to show me. The last time she got out of jail, she immediately ditched me to go and get into some trouble in New York. The time before that she went into her friends house really quick to grab something, and never came back out. She tried to blame me for her actions. She just wanted to get high and ditch the one guy that did not want her to get high. Excuses are like assholes, there’s a lot of of them. So I’m expecting nothing different this time. I just hope this time she fucks me first before she fucks off.