There's always another hole.

 It was never my intent to romanticize anything that I do with these prostitutes or with porn in general. If anything I want to dispel the notion that this is somehow romantic in anyway. We fuck each other because of our lizard like brains that compel us to do so. It’s easy to tell whether you like someone or whether you just wanna fuck them. After you cum, ask yourself if you want them to leave or not.Many people are in bad relationships simply because they like sex, and they don’t know how to deal with a narcissist.

You have to think of relationships is more dynamic than just a him and her type. You have a type of relationship with every single person you’ve ever met, it’s just a matter of intensity. Justice is a narcissistic personality, meaning she can do no wrong ever. And this is the funny bit. To a narcissist, they truly believe that they can do no wrong. What this means is that they can’t understand why life sucks for them, why people treat them the way they do. Nothing is ever their fault, so when the consequences of their actions come back to bite them in the ass they can’t understand why.

With regards to Justice, She’s going through a really bad run right now. She is a full-blown junkie at this point every waking moment of her day is spent trying to get more dope. I have become the path of least resistance for her. Up until this afternoon, I’ve been helping her with money, even through threats and arguing to the point where I did not let her in today. Because she is a narcissist, She thinks that I’m the one being the jerk. She can’t possibly understand why I wouldn’t let her in, even though just this morning I gave her another $40 and a ride even though I did not wanna go anywhere because I was tired just to get rid of her

A typical argument with a narcissist goes something like this: Don't smoke dope in the hallway, everyone can smell it.

Who gives a shit, I don’t give a shit. People don’t even know what it smells like. I can see why your mother doesn’t call you. Nobody likes you. The other girls talk about you because you are such a pushover. 

As you can see, a narcissist will shift the subject, blame you, bring up any other topic, whether it’s a lie or not, but they will never address what you said. They will never stop arguing until they feel they’ve won the argument they will insult you and do anything they can. other than address what you said. This is all internal and natural for them. Whataboutism, threats, blaming others, shifting topics, They are not doing this consciously. It is a defensive reaction. The immediately go into attack mode the minute anyone has anything to say at all about them. And at the end of all this you’re pissed off and they have absolutely no idea why, because they did nothing wrong.

You were seeing this with a junkie whore, all the way up to the presidency. We just saw Trump give a speech, blaming everything on Biden. Trump is probably the best example of a narcissistic personality. Nothing is ever his fault in his mind and he truly believes it, because people like him have an inability for self reflection.

Justice had also just robbed the store across the street again. There were three police cruisers there this time. They didn’t catch her, but they all know who did it. It won’t be long before she’s in jail. Eventually, their luck runs out. I told her to leave me alone this weekend so that I can get some work done. She did the exact opposite, demanding money, demanding to stay over and sleep here because she’s got nowhere else to go. By the way, they always have somewhere to go. They just burn a lot of bridges.

Don’t think of this is as arguing in the traditional sense. The arguing is too intense for me, because the minute I say, she did anything no matter how big or how small she will immediately explode upon me and launch into a narcissistic rant of blaming you, demanding money, never leaving you alone, and never relenting to the point where you just don’t want them around anymore. And all because they cannot for a moment address the notion that they may have done something wrong.