Not fair.

 The biggest misconception children have about life is that things should be fair. The biggest obstacle to overcome as an adult is to dispel that ridiculous notion. Nothing in life is fair or guaranteed. There was a particular spider that preyed upon ants. This spider stood perched on a branch above ants busily rushing in either direction along a path. The spider would create a web, hold it, and then snatch up an ant. None of the other ants seemed to notice or care. This is how the world really works. Everyone wants to take from you. Everyone wants to consume you. No one will stop them. 

I'm depressed. Sleeping late, not leaving the house on a nice day. Scaring children trick-or-treaters. Well, that last one is just for fun. I'm angry at my family for treating me the way they do. Apathetic at best, and cruel at worst. 

And the girls just keep calling. They still request money on cashapp. They still come over unannounced. Calling, texting, hitting me up. "You busy? "Got time" "Wanna meet up?" Of course i do, but I don't know if I should be spending money I no longer have. You see, I have money I have been investing. I can't touch any of it for at least another year. Once I have my return of capital, I can then rely on using that money as income. Until then, I'm limited. My whole budget relied upon my paycheck. The porn money offset the cost, but Justice has become greedy and harasses me nonstop for money. I don’t know how much anyone can trust Reddit, but everyone there is saying the ETFs I have are bad investments. Yieldmax. If everything stays the course, even though I’m losing on the NAV, I will have made my money back within a year. Then it's all profit as I funnel reinvestments into more stable income like QQQI. Meanwhile, everyone else is getting rich off the AI investments like Broadcom and ASML.

In the meantime, I have little to live on. i’ll add up I’m blowing about 20 to 25,000 a year on women. I’m not spending a lot every day, but it’s too often and ask that spending accumulates. even if I have only a couple women asking for five or $10 a day, that alone adds up to $3,650. That's a lot of bills I can pay. I’m gonna be hit for thousands in taxes too. dividend investing is taxable. 

Consider all of this when the girls are sending me pictures of their ass. Despite everything, I will never go back to work for my loathsome family. Picture Cinderella, having been recently divorced by the Prince, asking her evil stepmother for her old job back of scrubbing staircases. Not a chance.

I just got off a call with Justice, who was trying to come over again. I told her that the amount of money she was on drugs makes me sick. She said she can’t quit smoking or drugs or any of her habits. I told her Phil Collen of Def Leppard Decided one day to quit drinking and stuck to it. He woke up with a $15,000 Rolex watch on his wrist and he had no idea how it got there. she then said something that enraged me. She said, "Why quit? He can just pawn it!" I told her I have cats to feed that are smarter than her.