Every day is a new ray of sunshine.

 This is almost like a business... Except I'm losing money. It's almost routine. Justice has been on my mind a lot lately, so I picked her up yesterday for the same old routine. She comes over for a while, we have sex, she goes home. 

Today, the Cousin said she is out of a detox, and insists she's been there for a week. She lies so much, that I just don't believe anything she says. I have to see it for myself.  She issues she's not with that dirtbag and that the baby is mine. She said she wanted to come over for the night and had nowhere to go. I picked her up, gave her something to eat, and told her she could stay here tonight. I told her I don't want her getting high on the porch and that I'm not giving her any money. 

... Anyone wanna take a stab at how tonight went? she spent all her time on the porch getting high, Messing up the house, staying in the bathroom with the water running for like an hour, and creating general chaos. In the end, she took her pants off and bent over and the next thing I knew I was fucking her. Doggy position can be very persuading. I am truly a man with no self-esteem. At 3:30 in the morning, I gave her $80 and drove her home stopping for cigarettes. I think what pisses me off the most is her lack of respect for my house and  how destructive she is with everything she touches.