She called me on it!
I can’t see my own bullshit! But she could. The brunette came over after spending half the day saying that she’d get ready. Finally, I went and picked her up. Same thing happened as always I took her out for coffee at a fancy coffeeshop in town. Then we went back to my place where she went out on the porch, then into the bathroom, and then when she was finally ready... into the bedroom, I tried to take a decent video, but I don't have a film crew. It's called amateur for a reason.
The most devastating revelation to me was what she said afterwards. She wanted to stay, But that meant staying while I was at work. I’m just not ready to trust her in my house by herself. I have every reason not to trust her. She said she wouldn’t be able to get into her friends house early in the morning so I either drop her off tonight or I finally decide to let her stay. We both knew the answer. As much as I want her to stay here with me, I just don’t think that I could ever trust her to be here. It doesn’t help that she spent the entire night after we screwed out on the porch getting even more high. I am only ever going to be a trick, and she knew it. I don’t think I was ready to accept it. Probably because I want what is convenient to me. It was and still is a lot to think about. I get what I want out of her and send her back home to her friend. What incentive do I have to leave her in my house by herself, knowing that she has an expensive drug habit and spends most of her time here getting high. She’s way ahead of me on this.
So how does the 360 videos look?
ReplyDeleteIt's like you're standing next to us.
DeleteThat’s so awesome… I have any idea… can you upload everything to a google drive and open it for sharing?
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